Happy Birthday Mom, I love you & Miss You

I miss you momI can’t believe how many years have passed since I lost my mother, and every year at this time, I take some time to remember her. Sure I do a bit of crying, it’s perfectly natural. I think it makes up for why I didn’t cry when I initially found out she passed away. It must of been shock, that is really the only explanation I have. I think my shock started before she actually passed away, I was in denial. It took me a little over a year before I actually started to cry. I guess my soul finally came to terms that she was gone. What a horrible feeling. Well I don’t want this post to be all sad and stuff.

Remembering someone you have lost should not only be sadness but happiness that they are in a place much better than us. That’s if you believe in Heaven, which I do I know she is in Heaven, and she is no longer in the pain she was when she was with us. My mom went through a lot in her life, from losing her mother when she was only a child, to losing one of her own children when she was young. She has lived so much, in such a short amount of time. I lost her 11 years ago, the moment I found out she passed is etched in my memory forever. The last time I seen her will never escape my memory either. Oh how I miss her, how I wish she was still her, but that is my own selfishness that wants her to be here. I miss her laugh, her smile, her smell. I just miss her ?

On Your Birthday, I love you Mom

Well there isn’t much to say today. I have to admit when I woke this morning, I didn’t remember it was her birthday, I hate mornings like that, not remembering things, but then it hit me, and I knew it was mom reminding me lol. I know it’s silly but that’s how I see it. I asked my William to drop by and pick up a candle on his way home, I completely forgot to ask him earlier in the week, although today is only Wednesday lol. I always burn a candle for her on her birthday, the day she passed, and on Christmas. I can’t tell you how much I miss her, it hurts so much! I just need my time to cry. I’ll be okay, it’s just part of nature.

I made a short video of a few nice quotes I found on the internet, full credit goes to the makers. I miss my mom, no one will ever know how lonely that makes me feel. But I also have a lot of very nice memories, and things that make me giggle that remind me of her. I love you mom, and miss you so very much! That’s all for today everyone, have a blessed week.

Comments

  1. Aww… love the way you express your hurt.. It’s the saddest thing loosing your mom..

  2. Cheryl Grant-Wade says:

    My Mom passed Nov. 8 the 2016, an its 9 of us an we all were her babies, her oldest 67, her youngest 44, an the pain is still so deep, Lord I miss her. Her Birthday is July 13, 1932. She was a MOTHER, the Mother that everybody wants to have. I love my Mom so much, my friend, my Buddy, my comforter, my rock, my mentor, my Prayer partner, my shoulder to cry on, I will visit her grave for the first time tomorrow, she always looked forward to her Birthday, I always would right her a poem, honoring her an I will take it an read to her tomorrow. Happy Birthday Mama, Mrs. Anna Mae Tinnion, a true Mother who loved the Lord, an taught us to do the same. Thank you for the memes helping me put my words in order.

    • I’m so sorry foe your loss Cheryl, your mother, did she pass in 2015, as we are only in July of 2016, i’m sure it was a typo. I am so sorry for your loss, even though time doesn’t completely heal the pain, you learn to live with it, I sometimes sit and think about my mother, and how much I wish she was here, I can only pray that where ever she is, she is in peace, i love her, i always will. I hope you find comfort in time. Prayers go out tou you and your loved ones, may your mother rest in peace.

  3. Rosemary Escalante says:

    Hello Emily, my name is Rosemary Escalante and today is my mom’s birthday 6-14-2016, she would have been 85 today, she passed away on November 5th 2014. I miss her terribly, I saw your post about your mom, so beautiful. Thank you

    • Rosemary I am so sorry for your loss. I miss my mom so much too. Everyone says it will get easier, it does get easier, but we never forget. Stay strong and remember her with a smile

  4. Dear Emily,
    I wanted to thank you for your post.
    I lost my mommy 15 years ago when I was 33, right after the birth of my third child and today I just broke down and cried, and cried and cried.
    Today is not Mother’s day, or the anniversary of her death and I can’t understand why my heart and brain chose today of all days to miss her, but I haven’t cried once since she passed away.
    I always have irrational anger at those who have mothers and grandmothers and I have none, but today I decided to stop feeling so helpless and your post brought me comfort.
    I am so very sorry for your loss and wish you and your family all the very best.

  5. Sylvia Robledo says:

    I recently lost my Mom November 2015. I miss her everyday. My life has changed so much without her. She was a Godly woman. I long to hear her voice. I know she is resting in peace though. It will take sometime to adjust to not having her around especially on special occasions. I cry then I smile I cry then I smile whenever I think of her memories…….

    • Oh Sylvia I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. It will never go away, the pain, but it will get easier to live with. I love my mother and miss her so much, wish I could of shared so many things with her, but I find comfort in the fact that I know she is watching over me. I even feel her sometimes As I think you will too. Hang on hunni, and I am always here if you want to talk.

  6. Erin Taylor says:

    I know exactly what you’re going through. I just recently lost my own mom. I am 12 years old and i lost my mom on November 8th. It’s almost been 2 Weeks since her passing. Just don’t worry, I miss my mom too. You’re not alone!

  7. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your Mom….I truly am amazed that you made it through 11 years without her…I lost my Mom only three years ago, and I feel I just cannot go on without her. I have no single day I don’t think of Mom…every step I’m taking, or deciding to take I always feel this emptiness that I cannot ask her advice, and whether I’m doing the right thing or not. And it is even worse when something good comes around as it makes me all of a sudden very sad that she cannot be here and I cannot share it with her. I’m thinking how I’ll be graduating from school in June…and she couldn’t wait. She couldn’t wait to see me finish school, and start my big world. Let alone the time when I’ll fall in love, or get married, or will have my first car, or kid, or house and whatnot. My world became very very empty without her. And like you say, it is selfish to wish them back….one way or the other, but my Mom had lots of pain too. My Mom also lost her mom when she was a child, and well, and as yours, my mom lost her child too (my brother), and then went through a great suffering while being sick with cancer. I totally understand you…but I’m shocked that life does go on and we can survive that long without our Moms…you’re an inspiration…11 years…sounds so impossible…I don’t light candles….but I do buy a big bouquet of flowers (yellow roses as those were here favorite) on her birthday…but no Christmas for me. Ever since Mom left I hate Christmas…and I even hate how the decorations are showing up in the store…it makes me really mad and upset…and it breaks me into tears too….so I’ll stop right here as I’m already teared up and have a hard time seeing the screen…but all the best for you! And just look up the sky…the brightest star…that’s your Mom!!!!

  8. I’m so sorry for your sadness. Lighting a candle for her is a sweet tradition. You reminded me of my mom who lights candles as well when someone is on her mind.
    Hugs!
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