I just finished watching a movie called “The Marine” it was nice, this guy John Cena I believe he is a wrestler came out in it, it was an okay movie, but with a name like “The Marine” I really expected it to be more about military, than domestic stuff or even jewelery robbery, but still a good an okay movie. I was just reading a bit about John Cena and apparently it’s his first movie, he was ok in it, not a bad actor. I read a review someone wrote and it was a real bad one. I do agree that the soundtrack sucked and some of the scenes were stupid, like suppose to be funny but to me it just didn’t fit in. It wasn’t what I expected, I was disappointed but at least I got a chance to see John Cena act even if I’ve never seen him wrestle. Also too bad the movie wasn’t that great but I guess all actors come out in cheesy movies now and then lol. He does look like a marine though, I wonder if he ever served in the military?
I don’t know, well maybe I do. Things went to the extreme again with Alice. I seriously feel that it is time to just part. Tonight she did something that wasn’t very nice. She’s the type of person that gets in your face and says things, and naturally I’m the kind to defend myself. Well while I was telling her to get out of my face and to leave me alone because she was going on one of her rants again, I said a few things and out of nowhere she decides to punch me on the side of my head at the temple, that just really made me go nuts. I was on the laptop at the time, had the laptop on a small round table in the living room when it happened and a cup of coffee, I was going to do some work on Pixelfx when suddenly I feel this punch, I flew up tossing the small table to the floor and I picked up the coffee cup and threw it into the fireplace and started to yell at her. Asking her why she did that, that it’s not way to handle anything, and that no one should be hitting anyone, I went a bit berserk. I won’t go into all details, but that was the straw that broke the camels back for me. I do love her but I can’t keep going through this, what’s going to happen next time? I don’t think I am going to bother. I lover her, but I do got to let her go. Violence in a relationship is not for me. I got away from a guy once that hit me, and by God I will NOT be a with a woman that will do the same.
I wrote an email to my older brother today, telling him a little about what I had been feeling this past year and a half. He don’t think it’s a good idea for me to go and live in Missouri alone. That I should come back to California, and find work there. He said my sister in law works for Albertsons and she can possibly see about getting me in at Albertsons which is nice to know that would be fantastic. I haven’t wrote him back yet. I looked around for flights to LAX to see how much it would cost and all, so I need to talk to Alice about this tomorrow. Right now after what happened I don’t want to be around her. I don’t know if I’ll want to be around her tomorrow either. I can’t even look at her face, or hear her talk. My head hurts still from the blow, it’s like a headache on my right side. Anyway, thebest thing would be for me to go back to Cali. I really wanted to make this work, but it’s not going to work like this. There are so many issues, issues I don’t talk about because they are so personal. I do believe she is still going to buy property in Missouri and rent it out and in about a year or two she will retire and go out there. I don’t know if we will continue talking or not. I don’t know anything right now. I’m just really sad over all this.
I’m finally converting pixelfx.org to php and fixing the coding, finally huh? I’m not sure how long it will be until I can finally open the site with a new layout. but first things first, and coding needs to be fixed and some stuff needs re-arranging. But I’m glad I’m getting a chance to do something on it. I’m playing around with another script for list-me.com also, I’ve read that simpledir isn’t as secure as I’d hoped it would be. Hopefully when I get the new script customized I’ll be able tochange things, so wish me luck with that. So that on top of possibly, no most likely flying back to Calif and trying to, after a year and a half in England, try to start over, job, home and all. As for love, I’m not going to bother, I’m not going to attempt a damn thing, thats like the last thing I need in my life. Anyway wish me lots of luck.