Do you ever feel at any time usually it’s a feeling you get in a day when things don’t feel right, like somewhere , something is not right? Yeah thats what i felt last night, this real weird, loneliness, oddness type thing, I can’t put my finger on it, but it just felt so weird. I felt it before I watched this movie Alpha Dog but felt even worse after I saw it. Have you ever seen a movie that disturbed you, like made you sad, heck for that matter have you ever read a book that made you feel like that? I have, I read a book from my favorite author Dean Koontz it’s called False, I won’t tell you what it’s about but after reading it, I cried, cried feeling the unfairness in it, even though that book was not based on any real life story, although I’m sure there are similar true stories in reality. Well last night I had this weirdness feeling, kind of like if you are on a Island all alone, I can’t really explain it, I don’t even think thats accurate. But then even though I was feeling what I was feeling I couldn’t sleep, time seemed to go slow which is weird because I constantly complain about there never being enough time for anything, but last night was different, something in the air just wasn’t right. So I watched this movie, and after I watched it I felt the same as I did when I read that book. Now I know movies are suppose to make us feel something, not everyone will feel the same thing, most will say “ahh thats fucked up” or something similar. I felt unfairness and unjust, I just felt affected by the movie, it was I think based on a true story no too sure. I know I’m rambling on but I can’t help trying to figure out what I was feeling last night and why. I’m still bothered by it right now. I’m sure I’ll shake it off. Have you ever watched or read a book that not really moved you, but just bothered you and made you feel sad. Did you see this movie? What did you think of it? I’m just wondering what other people thought.
I hope everyone had a good mothers day. I can’t really say I have, I lost my mother in 2001, so it’s rather sad during these times of the year. The feeling I was referring to above I don’t feel has anything to do with mothers day and the fact my mother is not around, and if it does it must be something really in my subconscious and that I’m not aware of, but right now I don’t feel it was that, it was something else that I’m trying to put my finger on. I don’t feel so good right now, so I’m going to close this.