It feels like yesterday, the house feels quieter than normal, even though it isn’t the house I grew up in with my mom. It is in California. 14 years since my beloved mother passed away. I feel it in the heart each year. I come across so many people in my day to day life, and see how lucky some are to still their mother. There is so much I wanted to share with my mom. I know she is looking down at me, and at times may be standing right next to me. Even though I don’t know it. But having your mom with you, to do those simple things in life. A cup of coffee in the morning, or a short trip shopping, or just sitting and chatting. Those are things I wish I still had with her.
Although I was only 36, and I was grown adult, I was just beginning my life, my real life, and then she was gone. It would be nice to have her with me, but I know she is in a better place, and pain free. But gosh how I do miss her. My world is quiet, too quiet. I get lonely for her. Her hug, her laugh, even when she raised her voice at me. I miss it! Even though I just said everything is quiet, I just feel like being alone with my thoughts today. Today is just another day for most, but for me, it is a lot more than just a day. It is a day my life changed for ever. I miss you mom, I love you, and one day we will see each other again.
I think that is all I will say for now, because I will just go on and on. Lol. I suppose it is my day to do that. But I wouldn’t want her to be disappointed me, if I am just sulking all day. For those that come across my post, do me a favor and just hug your mom and tell her you love her for no reason, just because you can.