I didn’t know how to title this post. I originally titled it “God, Life, World, Death” but I have a feeling I will change that. Recently I have had so many different feelings about the World, and My Life. And where is it going, what am I going to do with the rest of my life?
I closed my YouTube page, as now I feel it is a waste of time. I wish I had focused more on God and my faith. I feel it is never too late. People seem to try to distance themselves from people that speak about God a lot. I think I am guilty of that. Not because I didn’t or don’t believe in God because I do. But I feel it is because I didn’t understand it, or subconsciously I was scared of knowing the truth. I suppose my truth will be different from others.
Anyway, I say about a week ago. I feel I truly received God into my heart. I have my oldest brother to thank for that. I should have seen the attempt at helping me see the way, years ago.
I recall one time, a friend of mine and myself were at a park. And there were these young adults that walked up to us and asked us if they could pray for us. I found that odd, a random stranger coming up to me and asking to pray for us. I don’t know what they saw in us to feel they needed to do that. I think that was the first time someone offered to pray for me, and save me.
I feel bad that I don’t recall exactly how that went down, whether I was alone, or if I was with someone else. I think I was. I can see it in my mind’s eye. I can visualize it. The point is I could have pursued that back then, and I didn’t. Why? Because Satan has a hold of me, and I didn’t know it. I know differently now.
So many things in one’s life can change in an instant, we all know this. I am glad that I now see God as the way, the only way to salvation. When the tribulation comes I will not be scared, because I know God will take me to be with him.
I have so much to learn from the bible. I am actually looking for my first bible. Yeah, I have never had my very own bible. I thought I found the one I wanted, but I knew that the bible I choose I would have probably for the rest of my life. And I did not want to be unhappy with what I choose. Now with that said, what the bible looks like is not the point, but his word is. I agree with that. But on that same note, I would like to have something that makes me happy. This is the one I am pretty sure I am going to go with.
It is a New James King Version Classic Verse-by-Verse Center-Column Comfort Print Reference Bible with a beautiful soft leather-look, in brown rather than black and it is thumb tab indexed. I choose this one because of how beautiful it looks outside and in.
Isn’t this beautiful though? I like the verse-by-verse, and how each verse is numbered in red. I saw a video review, it isn’t this exact one, but the layout of the page is the same. You have to see this, it looks so much nicer than these photos. I am purchasing it from the same place the person did in this video. Here is the link to this bible https://www.christianbook.com/nkjv-classic-column-comfort-reference-leather/9780785229674/pd/229677
I thought it was not indexed but it is, it is a 10pt but it looks to be bold which makes it easier to read, even for us old folks that need bifocals I am going to love this bible. My husband has a bible he picked up I am not sure where but the font is so small it even stresses his eyes when he reads it. So I am buying us both a bible. He said we can have one bible for both of us, but honestly I wanted my own, and I may or may not make notes in it at some point, and he may not. Besides I think having our own will gives us the opportunity to read when we want, or at the same time when we are reading verses together.
As of the writing of this post, I have not ordered yet. It is about 5:30 am, and my cat Lily woke me with her whining so I needed to get up to allow my husband to sleep without any interruptions. Which gave me the chance to come to write this post. And share what is going on in my head
I pray that you open your heart to God, if you have let me know. God bless.