Even though I slacked off on this 30 Days of Truth, no one said, it had to be one after another now did they? Lol. So with that said, let's move on. Oh yeah if you are interested in doing it, check out where I started click here, will show you all you need to do. Have fun with it! Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for. Wow this one is really hard, because it goes so deep, it's the first time I had spoke about it publicly. I almost don't even want to share it. I guess because I feel I will be judged, then again I never give a shit what people think haha. So you are in luck. Well I can say that about 10 years ago, I lost my mother. God rest her soul. But before she passed away, over time. I noticed she got ill, and it just progressed and seemed to get worse. Years before she got ill, she would play around and pretend she Continue Reading
Happy Thanksgiving
It's upon us, it's like tomorrow! Yeah Thanksgiving. This year we are going to Williams uncle Steve's house to have a super nice Thanksgiving dinner. I have never been there, so I will feel awkward as I usually do lol. I had a blouse picked out for Thanksgiving, I tried it on last night, and didn't like how it looked, so I was a bit disappointed about that. So have to pick another, which I'm okay with, it's a cheery looking blouse. Hope it's not too cold tomorrow or I'll freeze my ass off in it. I have been wanting to get another coat, for just going out, not really being in the snow or anything. Like going to dinner, and taking it off in a restaurant or house, you know what I mean. We ladies seem to want a coat for every occasion hehe. So anyway, since I may not be home much of the day tomorrow, to be quite honest I don't even know Continue Reading
It’s Been 9 Years
Time really does go by fast, it's been 9 years since my mother passed away. Gosh how I miss her! I miss her voice, her laugh, even the way I would aggravate her, and then laugh about it. I miss her loving ways towards me. She was a very loving woman, I have such an empty space in my heart for her. When she passed away, it took me a long time to really begin to heal. We never really get over losing a loved one, but we learn to deal with it better. I have had people in my life that have been so understanding and caring about this. Then there were some that basically said "Get over it" which is really the cruelest thing to say to someone. One day they too will feel what it's like to lose a loved one. I had one person tell me that, I was shocked to be quite honest. That someone could be so cold in that way. I don't need to associate with Continue Reading
March Madness
Wow I can't believe it's March already omgosh where does time go? I bet everyone and their second cousins says that hehe. There are a lot of birthdays in March for me, my brothers, father's, nieces birthday, and my lovely friend Steve, and also Williams sister Jaime all have birthdays this month, sad to say, it's the month my dear mother passed away. It's really hard for everyone when March rolls around, but I can only imagine how my brother and father feel when their birthdays comes around, because it will forever be a reminder of when my mother passed away. It'll be 9 years this month. Gosh I miss her so much. After time passes, you reflect back and really appreciate the family you have, and try to remember not let too much time go in between visits, always forgive even if you cannot forget, or even going as far to say that, changing Continue Reading
Happy Father’s Day
Another one rolling around already, wow it comes and goes so fast. I seem to always repeat myself when it comes to holidays, I say things like "time is going too fast, someone slow it down" yeah like that lol. But even if they repetitive, it's just so true. So today is Father's Day. I'm in England, and my father is in America. We have a funny relationship, well not funny just not cool I guess. We are not close, I mean I love my father, don't get me wrong. But as an adult and after my mother passed away God rest her soul, he has become distant. When my mom was around, sure he took some interest but not like most dads would. That kind of made me feel sad. So after mom passed away in 2001, you would think it would make us closer? Well it didn't! He somehow managed to find another partner, not marry her but just living with her, and ever Continue Reading