Spiraling Down

I wish I could just let it out and moan about every little bad part of my life. I think this domain started with that. If I come to think about it. How funny. My relationship started about the same time that I put this domain up. Well I plan on getting another one, and with that a change of life, I’m hoping. I’ve never lived in abusive relationship but Omg!! It’s so much more than I can handle, when I say abusive it’s mainly been verbal and emotional. I think I am getting numb to it. I actually hate my ex! Well thats a bit strong, I strongly dislike how she is. I am far from being perfect. There are many things about this “type” of relationship that I didn’t understand and see now that it wasn’t for me. Sometimes I feel my head will explode, seriuosly explode. I don’t get along with my ‘ex’ and being ex’s makes things all that much harder. There is no salvation here, and I don’t want to save what ever is there. Perhaps friendship if that. I actually don’t like talking to her on the phone because its never pleasant. She’s better in person than on the phone. She is constantly complaining about something. I should just leave and not be in this situation anymore. Why do I stay I ask myself. It’s not like were even living together, she’s in London and I’m here. Occasional visits, yeah I know that makes a relationship worse, but it’s not even so much that, it’s how she is. Am I complaining, am I the one in the wrong here? I don’t know anymore. It’s really sad because years to come I’ll remember my visit to England and it’ll be all sad memories, maybe not all sad but enough, enough to have a sad moment. I need to move one now. This is just getting a bit too pathetic.

I recently saw the movie Alien vs Predator: Requiem, it was a good movie. I have always liked Alien, and Predator movies, so this was really cool how they brought them together. I remember someone asking me, which do you prefer. I’m like I don’t really care I’ll just watch the movie. So as I watched, I began to want Predator to win lol. How funny because in this movie Predator was still killing humans. It was a good movie, I enjoyed it. Another movie I seen was Cloverfield, wow that was just a sudden thing in that movie, it makes you think. Can and will it really happen like that, just out of the blue. I guess for aliens its the best time to hit anyone, when they don’t expect you. It’s scary though. If you haven’t seen them then you should. Another movie I’d like to see is National Treasure: Book of Secrets, that came out over here on Friday, I seen the first one so I know I’ll like this one. Anyone seen any of these, if so what did you think? Well I’m going to go, I’m expecting a not so friendly phone call. Have a good week all.