We not only have the holidays rolling in but birthdays as well. My moms birthday was last week. I didn't feel much like posting about it, I have done it every year whether it be for the day or a day or week after. So here I am again. Missing my mom like crazy. I have missed out on having a mom for a lot of special occasions. But you know what I realized just a few minutes ago. My mom is seriously in a better place. Regardless of what anyone says or thinks or believes. She is in heaven with our father God. And because she is there, she is not here where the world is truly going to shit. I hate even talking about this in the same breath as talking about my mom. But the world is really crazy, and I don't see it let up anytime soon. I would hate my mom Rest her soul, to be here and be subjected to all the bullshit we are dealing with. I Continue Reading
14 years, and it feels like yesterday, I miss you Mom!
It feels like yesterday, the house feels quieter than normal, even though it isn't the house I grew up in with my mom. It is in California. 14 years since my beloved mother passed away. I feel it in the heart each year. I come across so many people in my day to day life, and see how lucky some are to still their mother. There is so much I wanted to share with my mom. I know she is looking down at me, and at times may be standing right next to me. Even though I don't know it. But having your mom with you, to do those simple things in life. A cup of coffee in the morning, or a short trip shopping, or just sitting and chatting. Those are things I wish I still had with her. Although I was only 36, and I was grown adult, I was just beginning my life, my real life, and then she was gone. It would be nice to have her with me, but I know she Continue Reading
Happy Birthday Mom, I love you & Miss You
I can't believe how many years have passed since I lost my mother, and every year at this time, I take some time to remember her. Sure I do a bit of crying, it's perfectly natural. I think it makes up for why I didn't cry when I initially found out she passed away. It must of been shock, that is really the only explanation I have. I think my shock started before she actually passed away, I was in denial. It took me a little over a year before I actually started to cry. I guess my soul finally came to terms that she was gone. What a horrible feeling. Well I don't want this post to be all sad and stuff. Remembering someone you have lost should not only be sadness but happiness that they are in a place much better than us. That's if you believe in Heaven, which I do :) I know she is in Heaven, and she is no longer in the pain she was Continue Reading
