That's a big statement in itself, I'm sure we all know that the truth hurts but sometimes the truth needs to be said. Last night, Alice asks me the question "how do you know you are in love" it's a hard question to answer really. Personally if I am in love, truly in "love" I don't question it, I don't even ask myself "Do I really love this person?" Anyway, I told her my thoughts about that, and she told me that she loves me, but she don't think she's "in love" with me. I tell you, that does hurt. So last night I did sleep in the same bed lol, but she stayed up till like 4am, I kinda did too. I didn't feel much like doing anything online, so I shut down my laptop and just crawled into bed. She was in the living room, working on her "novel" and listening to music, and who knows what else. Today though, when I got up, I felt I don't know Continue Reading
Down and sad
Alice has these moments or should I say days that she feels depressed, I don't know what to do those days. Today was that day. We didn't go out, she got into that youtube thing, and I can hear her laughing from the room, I was happy to see her so happy you know? I made her lunch, and we drank tea, and she watched youtube for a good while, then she wrote, she's working on her novel, then more tea, and more surfing. I'm thinking this is great, she is happy. Then into the evening, she starts getting annoyed, I get close to her she says she feels I'm in a bad mood, I'm like "no babe, it's you that is feeling that not me" so I pamper her and all, trying to make her feel better. But it's one of those things that you can't shake off no matter what you do or anyone else does. I know how she is feeling, I've been there when I just feel like Continue Reading
Britney Spears Attempted Suicide
Hey can you believe it, she has really lost it or something, it was reported that Britney tried to hang herself with a bedsheet after running around Promises rehab facility screaming “I am the Antichrist†with the number 666 written on her forehead. Omg poor thing what is she going through that would lead her to try to do something like that? Read more. Gosh I feel so bad for her, she must be going through an awful lot to do something like that, but why? I mean she has a baby and all isn't she thinking of the baby or just herself? Is she being selfish? Whatever it is. I hope she gets better and starts to appreciate what she has, and she has a lot. We all have problems but most of us try to solve them not resort to something like what she was trying to do. Anyway good luck to her. As for my life, it's pretty calm right now. Alice Continue Reading
Postponed?
We decided to postpone the trip to Missouri for 6 months. She will be starting work in April, and wants to focus on that since it's a new place she'll be at with in the same department but new location and new staff and all that. Plus we want to catch up on some of the outstanding bills some. And the weather will be nicer by then too. But things can suddenly change as this has. She went out to London yesterday to look at some rooms, since she is going to be working in London she'll need a room there, but her schedule will be better 5 on 5 off, so thats good, she'll be here more than she was last time, I'm happy about that. She did ask me, what should we do if the realtor calls and says it's fine to put a deposit on the house that we were considering, I said well then in that case we will gather our stuff and go to Missouri. So it can Continue Reading
Unsure
Things are calm down, she feels so bad for what she did, but I'm not going to get into that no point. I have a carpet to clean because of the cup of coffee I threw, hope stains come out. I should of made her do it lol. I checked out https://www.zerorezsacramento.com for professional advice on it. Anyway there is someone coming over on Tuesday morning, we are checking to see how much the flat would go if we rented it out. That's not until Tuesday though. Alice is gone she had appointments in London, she needs to find a room to rent, while she works. She's going to be on a new schedule which she is happy about, 5 days on and 5 days off so thats great! Although they are 12 hour shifts. But she is content with that. So while she is working she'll be in London. Meanwhile I should be either in California or Missouri, depending on what happens Continue Reading