I don’t know if you want to call it eerie, but everywhere I walk around seems to make me feel like I don’t belong. I wonder if that’s what it’s going to feel like for awhile, I don’t know. Talked with her last night for awhile, but nothing good came of it. I think she’ll be coming down in a day or two, not sure about that yet either. Her mother called her, and I asked her about it, but she said she didn’t want to talk about it on the phone, which is ok with me, she would tell me when she sees me, so that didn’t exactly give me a date either. We’ll see soon enough I suppose. I feel lonely though. =/
I’ve been cleaning around the house, it needed it because when I left with her the last time, I didn’t get to do any cleaning, so the first day and a half I was back, I wasn’t feeling like doing anything at all. Just felt rejected I guess. So I just kind of drowned myself in other things, to distract my mind, did a little crying lol. Doesn’t crying seem to make things a little better. Then you just take a big deep breath and you begin to feel better. Well that’s what I did.Â I got laundry almost done, then I need to put that up, got a nice breeze coming through the house. I need to do some mopping, so I guess I better get to doing that.
Hoping to maybe work on putting up a new layout at my collective, I’m also changing the name, I changed my mind, I don’t like the one I have now lol. Right, so I’m going to mess with that later today. I applied for the John Keats fanlisting, I hope I get it, two others I have my eye on too. *keeps fingers crossed*