Spoke Up

I guess it had been building up for some time now, ever since she told me what she did on that phone earlier in the week, it really got me so depressed. It’s been building up to the point that I finally just blurted it out! We were on the phone off and on today, and she had been so pissy with me and I didn’t know why, where was it coming from? I tried to be patient and understanding. I realize she has many things on her mind, I don’t kid when I say many. In about 6 days she will be off work for 3 months, special leave, which makes me happy because she will be able to be here, at her real home, where she belongs. Back to the phone call, I had formatted her computer or that is restored it when she was here last week. I connected the broadband we have here, but completely forgot to check to see if the drivers for her wireless were installed, well when she got back to London, and was trying to connect it wouldn’t indicating something about a network adapter or driver missing, had a little yellow question mark. She got so frustrated, as she does many times, begins to get attitude with me. At one point she actually said I was trying to deliberately mess her laptop up, which I was not! Just things of that nature. She finally got to the point that she said, I’ll sort it out myself, and just hung up. Hanging up is one thing she really despises that I do, so why did she do it? I don’t know. I waited a few hours, and called her, of course the mobile was turned off, so I called her other mobile, and said, ‘stop with the immaturity and turn the phone on’, she made up some excuse about she forgot, but I know she didn’t she was just pissed at me, Lol and turned it off. So we began another conversation, this conversation lead to tears on my part, and apologies on hers, but I also told her what I’ve been thinking for a while now, that I have had thoughts of staying in California when we went to visit, she didn’t like the sound of that, and in all honesty I have been thinking about it very strongly. Well we talked and talked, and she listened which I’m glad she did, because it was getting bad. I think she realizes what she’d been doing. She changed the subject and began to tell me about Adriana, her best friend of ’15years’. She told me that she chewed her out today, because she was saying some bad things about me. She told her that if she is going to talk to her, that she is not to say anything like that again, of course she didn’t want to tell me everything, but I can just imagine. I don’t speak bad of Adriana, and I told Alice that I hope one day we can be come friends, not like her and Adriana, but better than the way things are now. Well the conversation went into talking about stuff like when we go to California, what are we going to do while were there besides take care of some business. The thing about Alice is she tries to pressure me into instantly saying things she wants to hear and I can’t do that on command, especially when I am not spiritually feeling happy, and I wasn’t, which led to me saying good night to her and hanging up. Lol. I know don’t hang up, so she called back about 3 minutes later, and in spanish apologizes for the way she got. Well conversation ended on a good note, and I told her to think positive, and to keep remembering in 6 days she will be out of there for a whole 3 months, which is fantastic!!! She said ok, and I said I’ll say my prayers and light my candles. I do love her very much, and I guess that’s why I understand why she gets like she does sometimes. Am I trying to make excused for her, certainly not, it’s just understanding on my part. I know she loves me, and she shows it in her funny way. Wow that was a rant alright. So my question to anyone who reads this, if you are going to sunny southern California, what would you do when you are there? Where would you go? What would you see?